He could feel his heart-beat – his anxiety. He was conscious about his scattering attention, his inability to concentrate and effortlessly focus on the subject (of his attention) for more than a few seconds. Meditation in such a situation seemed difficult – one thing that he felt could help him was good content – be it in any form – written text, audio, video – that which could hold his attention to it for a few minutes at the least – that which could help him calm down for a while by being completely involved in it. In spite (and as a result) of being overloaded with information, he yearned for ‘good’ content. It was also not that there wasn’t enough good content; He even knew where to search for it on the internet. It was the mind that just didn’t want to pause and give chance to any kind of content to make its impact. Sorry state of a mind that was not in a state of acceptance.
In the process of knowing a wide range of current issues, I compromised on my depth of understanding a single issue
In the anxiety to finish off a large number of news articles, I compromised on grasping the value of even one article
In the desire to memorize a series of words and facts without grasping their meaning, I lose the capacity to recall them at will
In the habit of keeping all my chrome tabs open, I scatter my precious presence from the task I’m doing
In a hurry to type out this particular piece of writing, I am compromising on the moments I could sit and simply ‘see’ my thoughts and physical movements.
May I practice that witness state, by which I see my fingers type on the keyboard while I remain a witness to this beautiful movement of my fingers.
It’s a beautiful feeling now when everything is happening for the first time.
In a perfect writing down of my stream of consciousness, I feel satisfied that the text in the stanzas has come from past tense to NOW tense.