More Continuous Partial Attention

More Continuous Partial Attention

He could feel his heart-beat – his anxiety. He was conscious about his scattering attention, his inability to concentrate and effortlessly focus on the subject (of his attention) for more than a few seconds. Meditation in such a situation seemed difficult – one thing that he felt could help him was good content – be it in any form – written text, audio, video – that which could hold his attention to it for a few minutes at the least – that which could help him calm down for a while by being completely involved in it. In spite (and as a result) of being overloaded with information, he yearned for ‘good’ content. It was also not that there wasn’t enough good content; He even knew where to search for it on the internet. It was the mind that just didn’t want to pause and give chance to any kind of content to make its impact. Sorry state of a mind that was not in a state of acceptance.


For writers who don’t write

The most difficult task you can give a writer is that of writing.

English: penulis = writer
English: penulis = writer (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

He can think: A writer can think perpetually. He may be walking with his friends or may be in the middle of a crowded room. But his mind is constantly chattering to itself. Sometimes, quality thoughts which can make a wholesome article come to him on the commode. He never puts them down.

He can inspire: A ‘true’ writer inspires others to write. He appreciates others’ writing. Sometimes it is genuine. And often it is just to encourage the other to write more and write better. Nevertheless, he appreciates. But he never writes.

He can edit: When he comes across his friend’s writing, he is quick to make corrections. His intention is purely to improve his friend’s work. The quality of the work may be average. He tries his best to improve it using his own skill. But he never writes.

He can write: But he never does.

If you think you are a writer, here’s some inspiration from your buddy. You may help improve others’ writing with your editing skills. But help yourself too. Please write. We will take care of the ‘Publish’ button.

Mind Writing

Below is a small poetry that I wrote as a part of my ‘Creative Writing’ assignment during my college days. The remark that I got on the paper was – ‘Philosophical, but interesting.’ I am yet to figure out what she meant by this. Anyway, here we go…

Mind writing

“Write what others like”

Shouted an eager Mind when I began to write

But that ‘I’ in my mind reasoned,

Why not write what I like?

“Hunger to be acknowledged-”, Answered Mind.

“-How very result oriented have I become!-”Admitted Mind

“-Who works not unless given an incentive or motivation,

Thereby draws no pleasure when work is actually in progression.”

“Derive all your pleasure from the work itself,” says The Bhaagwat,

“For the result is decided by me The Creator of The Bhaagwat”

But who can tame this irrational Mind,

Who expects and often dreams the future results even before starting the work?

“I can tame” – comes a voice from within

Only to find that it is my own mind

Alert and conscious now, wherein,

It can be now said to be in a state divine

“Write anything when you are not confined.”- Says Mind

“Just make sure you enjoy the process-

And in your course hurt not the mankind”-Says the rational Mind

So here I write, write out my mind.

Relax – be patient with yourself

Most of us want to grow quickly and be done with it. The reality is that growth is slow. Growth is gradual.

This blog article is inspired by Mr. John. C. Maxwell’s book – ‘Talent is Never Enough’.

True growth is slow.

To be successful, we should start with small things and do them everyday.

Have patience with all things, but chiefly, have patience with yourself.

Do not lose courage in accepting your own imperfections. Instead, instantly start remedying them.

Everyday, begin the task anew.

(Read out the above lines slowly once again. This time, read them real slow).

Exam Stress

This blog article is being written under (competitive) exam-related stress. The purpose is to alleviate that stress by passing it onto my keyboard.

Any activity can become stressful when there is too much ‘doing’ involved in it. Preparing for exams is one such activity. Here, we are consciously pushing ourselves to study. We ‘know’ that a lot is at stake. “This exam can save one year of my life” – is what we believe! – a 2-hour exam can ‘save’ 365 X 24 hours of our life! – are we playing lottery with ourselves? But that’s how our belief system works under pressure.

Here is a list of ways that can help us assuage this state of anxiety and stress:

1. Write out a blog which talks about reducing stress. When you write, you will realize that you know it all and that you just have to apply what you write. Writing out the ways of reducing stress will lend better credibility to those beliefs in you. You will start believing them more.

2. Make sure you have several back-up plans. Thus, considerably lessen the things which may be at stake because of the exam.

3. Share your feelings with the ones who love you. I do it with my mum. I tell her everything I am going through. This helps me a lot. Pouring out the mind’s negative thoughts helps me to then nurture positive thoughts.

4. Start controlling your thoughts consciously. Thoughts will run wild when you are anxious. Remember, you are the Master.

5. When you are under stress, you are bound to be negative – you are bound to say ‘no’ more frequently. You are bound to be more anxious. Accept it. Accept yourself as you are and love yourself.

6. See the macro view – make a long-term plan. Remember, Growth is gradual.

7. Pray.

Papa talks to God

puja room

Papa talks to God in our ‘puja room’. I used to find it funny when I was 12. Now I admire him for it. When I am only able to say things to Him in my mind, papa is able to make it more ‘real’.

Papa is too simple unlike an ‘intellectual’ me who has/wants an explanation for everything. He doesn’t know why he talks to God in voice and not just think to Him. I presume he must be really enjoying the monologue. He has been talking to God at least since 10 years now.

What papa talks

Papa talks everyday stuff – tells Him the things that have been happening in his life. The talk happens in Hindi. When I asked papa what he talks, this is what he had to say:

“I start with “tera laakh laakh shukar hai for…

(yes he likes being dramatic).

I ask God for 3 things:

1. May the business go fine.

2. May the home be fine (By home, he means my mom!)

3. May there be good health.”

So genuine – things that he exactly wants.

I so admire this good habit that I can go on appreciating it.

How I think it works

I could not stop myself from thinking more about this good habit when these often-read words came to my mind.

1. Watch your thoughts. They become words.

2. Watch your words. They become actions.

3. Watch your actions. They become habits. 

4. Watch your habits. They become character.

5. Watch your character. They become destiny. 

TING! It flashed!

Papa is going through process #2 (where words become actions). I am stuck at process #1 (between process #1 and 2 to be precise, where thoughts are on the way to becoming words).

I have had my share of good thoughts too – but seldom vocally expressed them to God – exactly the reason why my ‘well-intended’ thoughts did not become actions.

Is it dramatic?

Mum told papa that the thank you part sounded a bit dramatic.

“God has never told me that it is too dramatic!” was his firm response.

“Oh! It’s a dialogue and not a monologue” – I said to myself.

Why do people blog?

To express themselves?

To ward off their loneliness?

To better their writing skills?

To channeling their energies into something creative?
To express without the fear of being said ‘no’ or insulted?Do they have someone in their mind as they write each blog of theirs? Does their state of mind with that ‘someone’ in mind affect what they write?

Are people able to express themselves fully and truly in their blogs? Or are they concerned about ‘what would people think?’ Are they able to truly type down whatever is coming to their mind then? – their stream of consciousness?Do they bother about spelling and grammar? Punctuations?

Do they type down all that they feel like and then hesitate to post it? Or even Cut and Paste it in MsWord, and save it?

Does the E-go play a very BIG part in writing and publishing blogs for everyone to read?

Or do they write to reflect on it at a later time & know themselves better?